MP (militarypenguin) wrote,

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Not emo, just confused.

I'm not a religious person by any means. Least, I don't think I am. I can't grasp the idea of reincarnation, the afterlife, God, etc. It sounds all too good to be true. So why am I feeling guilty as hell today? I know it's Good Friday. And even as much as I doubt that there's an afterlife, I can't help but feel incredibly pessimistic about it. What if there is an afterlife? What if all those radically religious people were right and all the people who aren't heterosexual are going to hell? I know I joke, "Well, hell sounds like it's more fun anyway," but sometimes I can't help but start putting too much thought into my words.

I'm confused as to what kind of person I want to be and how I'll be able to accomplish this while living up to the expectations of others, a feat I know I can't achieve. I don't know what to believe in religiously or politically, and I know I can't keep on living with the "I don't care either way" outlook, because what's the point of living when you're just going die? Life's a bitch and then you die, yeah, I know. I don't need to be told that for the nth time.
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