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10 years of tears and noses [Jun. 13th, 2019|08:07 pm]
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‪Was looking through old posts of mine and June 5th 2009 marked the day I finished season 1 of Kaiji…10 years…I had to celebrate 🎉 ‬

Special thanks to Kelly Onelani for making the Kaijidog plush a reality!
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Stars (Kaiji fic) [Feb. 19th, 2019|09:00 pm]
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Summary: One last date.
Content warnings: Spoilers for the manga, might or might not have a sting at the end, depending on how you interpret it.

'This could be our last time together, huh?'Collapse )
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Mob Mob Mob Mob Mob [Feb. 8th, 2019|09:01 pm]
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All I want to do is prattle on about Mob Psycho 100. The first season was really good, but it never reached the point where I felt passionately about it as a whole (save for Mob and Reigen, who I adore to no end).

But the second season. The second season has seized my heart in a vise-grip; it's everything that was so good about the first season but with even more emphasis on what made it such: the lessons of life that are at once sobering and uplifting, the highly poignant, highly entertaining dynamic between Mob and Reigen, Mob and Reigen themselves as characters, who are among the best-written I've seen in recent anime, the animation where every frame counts even when it's not an action scene...

But what I've really been adoring about this season is the stronger focus on the supernatural as being truly supernatural. The spirits here range from mischievous to violently antagonistic to passively benevolent in ways that are strikingly eerie in presentation (well before it cranks it into full gear in episode 5, even!). It's something I've craved from supernatural-themed anime for the longest time: something that really understands the concept and weight of the unknown, as opposed to another monster of the week.

Mob and Reigen continue to be the stars though, make no mistake. I both can't stop gushing about and am at a total loss for words for how to gush about them, they're just so expertly crafted in this way that's different and refreshing and captures all the nuances of adolescence and adulthood and...! I ended up rewatching season one and the recap OVA, because I couldn't get enough of them. They're the embodiment of something so engrossing they could be peeling paint and they'd have my undivided attention.

I hope the second season continues on with this stride of quality. It's been so long since I've felt this excitedly overjoyed about something on a weekly basis.
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New Year's Resolutions 2019 [Dec. 26th, 2018|08:30 pm]
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Is it too soon to be posting New Year's resolutions? Maybe, but I'm going to anyway.

Main goals:
  • Learn to drive
    • Fears and Challenges: Where to begin? I've been practicing driving since 2008 and it's always been a nerve-wracking experience, as is typical for most inexperienced drivers, but it reached a point where I sought professional help about it that concluded my anxiety and disability may have been what's handicapping me from driving safely. I still have many fears about driving from the possibility of facing a police officer to ending up in an accident, and the only thing that's making me reconsider it is starting up hypnotherapy with my therapist, and my...
    • Motivations and Goals: I'm weary of relying on others for transportation. There's places I want to go and people I want to meet up with, in short and in longer distances, without having to worry about draining my bank account or asking someone to take time out of their schedule for me. A newfound sense of freedom, independence, and happiness, is what I hope to gain from this.
  • Start up a WordPress blog
    • Fears and Challenges: I'll be writing about subjects that will dip into intensely personal and possibly controversial territory and, as such, I'll always be at risk of backlash or ridicule. Technically, I'm already at risk just by having an online presence, but setting up a more "professional" space to post opinion pieces is going to be examined with a more critical eye than what I'd throw up on a microblogging site. Writing these pieces (media analyses, mostly) will take a lot of work and energy on my part both in creating and editing them to make sure they meet my standards and what I believe will be the standards of most others. Regular output will also be a challenge.
    • Motivations and Goals: I have a lot of thoughts on my mind and a passion for writing; I want to hone both of these on a more regular basis and in a space that's explicitly dedicated to it. I feel like I've held back on words I've wanted to say for so long, out of fear of embarrassment that I'll mostly be talking to a wall, and as a result I feel like I'm not letting others see a side of me that I cherish. This is something I want to pursue both for fun, for solidarity (I'll very likely be writing articles connecting to trans issues, but sometimes that "Thank god, someone else feels this way" feeling is pretty great too), and to get others to think.
  • Increase my days at the gym from 3 days a week to 4 days a week
    • Fears and Challenges: Because of the change in my work schedule, as well as the trans masculine group I meet on Wednesdays evenings (I have to leave an hour after the gym opens again), I'll have to modify the original schedule that I was pretty satisfied with (Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays) to something else. Getting out of bed is harder work than any of the stations they have me work out at. At least one of these days (I'm shooting for a Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday schedule) will land on a work day (Thursday) where I'll likely be feeling too tired to want to hit the gym. One of these days (Tuesday) is one I'd rather just take the entire day off.
    • Motivations and Goals: I've been working out for three years, and my body has been seeing some enormous positive change from it...and I want to keep at that, and hopefully gain a body I can be even prouder of. Working out an extra day will be beneficial to my body but also my overall mood, especially knowing I've succeeded at taking 4 out of 7 of the days to work out.
Secondary goals: assert myself, leave comments on fanfic I've enjoyed.
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(no subject) [Dec. 12th, 2018|09:48 pm]
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I had my first meeting with a group of trans masculine people. I was referred to the group via a member from another trans group I went to this week; a group which was plenty supportive enough, but seeing a group targeted at a very specific niche of mine was something I needed badly. I've been on T for a year, and while it's been a great thing for me, it's also been a very isolating and lonely experience that's taken an enormous mental toll on me; I have no trans (or LGBTQ-aligned in general) friends or groups in my area, and being online can fill that void for only so long before you just need to meet someone like you in flesh and blood.

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Shikioriori (Samurai Jack fic) [Nov. 15th, 2018|06:12 pm]
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Summary: Jack and Ashi throughout the changing seasons.
Content warnings: None.
Notes: My entry for Jashi Zine. Enormous thanks to the amazing folks on the Jashi Zine Discord server for helping me out with ideas, research, and giving this a look-over; I really couldn’t have done it without you all.

Snow falls to ground, blanketing the hills in a thick whiteness.Collapse )
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Fair Trade (Kaiji fic) [Aug. 16th, 2018|03:35 pm]
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Summary: A night spent with Chang awakens new feelings in Kaiji.
Content warnings: None.
Notes: Belated birthday present for sogep! Special thanks to my beta, ZettoSan​, who gave this a thorough comb through.

They had situated themselves at one of the cheapest, dumpiest hotels in the area.Collapse )
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My card for trope_bingo [Jul. 1st, 2018|08:39 am]
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My card for hc_bingo [Jun. 22nd, 2018|12:35 pm]
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Never Felt so Lonely Then You Came Along (Samurai Jack fic) [Jun. 3rd, 2018|12:43 am]
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Summary: "Can I truly take any pride in my lineage?“
Content warnings: None, just lots of angst and hurt/comfort.
Notes: Written for Jashi Week: Royal Blood. Title taken from lyrics to "You’re Not Here” by Akira Yamaoka, because it was in my head while writing, and it fits.

Enough time had passed that the restoration of his homeland was beginning to see fruition.Collapse )
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My card for seasonofkink [Jun. 1st, 2018|01:32 pm]
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Afterglow (Samurai Jack fic) [May. 23rd, 2018|04:25 pm]
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Summary: Jack and Ashi admire the moon after a night of passion. Written for Jashi Week: Nature Lovers.
Content warnings: Very light NSFW.
Notes: Written for Jashi Week: Nature Lovers. Inspired by zencooly‘s wonderful art.

Both their bodies collapsed onto the bed of leaves, exhausted from an exhilarating moment of shared intimacy.Collapse )
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For You, My Captor (Samurai Jack fic) [May. 9th, 2018|09:33 pm]
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Summary: Dark AU. The Daughters of Aku have captured Jack, but are ordered not to kill him. Ashi is to watch over him.
Content warnings: Torture, Stockholm Syndrome, and all sorts of unhealthy, not-couple-goals-at-all-dynamics.
Notes: Written for Jashi Week: Love to Hate You.

The plan had changed.Collapse )
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A Piece of Home (Samurai Jack fic) [May. 8th, 2018|07:32 pm]
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Summary: Jack wants to bring a bit of home to his meal with Ashi. Written for Jashi Week: Table for Two.
Content warnings: Allusions to abuse, otherwise none.
Notes: Written for Jashi Week: Table for Two.

Jack took the four sticks out of the boiling kettle of water, then lay them across a piece of cloth.Collapse )
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Memories Old and New (Samurai Jack fic) [May. 6th, 2018|09:01 pm]
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Summary: Jack and Ashi discuss their first kisses.
Content warnings: Gets a little suggestive at the end, otherwise none.
Notes: Written for Jashi Week: Anniversary.

'Hey, about that other night…'Collapse )
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Love Like You (Samurai Jack fic) [May. 5th, 2018|08:52 pm]
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Summary: A collection of season 5 snapshots inspired by Rebecca Sugar’s song this fic shares the title of. Also known as: the AMV I would make if I had any video-making skills.
Content warnings: Passing mentions of abuse and violence, but nothing graphic.
Notes: Extremely late entry written for Jashi Week: Soundtrack Sunday. Wanted to finish this before the next Jashi Week begins (tomorrow)!

Ashi creeps behind the samurai, fingers wrapped firmly around the hilt of her kusarigama.Collapse )
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Beat FF7 [Feb. 21st, 2018|04:19 pm]
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I had a draft of this post saved that I held off posting until I had more in-depth thoughts to share, but it turns out I don't have many, if any. I absorbed so much of this game through fandom osmosis that it resulted in me having difficulty formulating my own unique thoughts on it. This happens a lot, where I expose myself to the fandom of a work I'm interested in, so much that I take it all in, leaving little room left for me to actually interpret it. It's not so much a case of spoilers, which I mostly successfully avoided (with the exception of a certain very infamous character death) as it is reading various analyses of it ahead of time because I want to come out of the game with the "right" opinion. In a lot of ways, I think what I'm expected to believe or feel (example: "This story will make you cry") are bigger "spoilers" than actual plot-related ones are.

But on to the game. I do I have thoughts, but they're mostly assumptions of mine that were proven false. (spoilers)Collapse )

After finishing FF7, I thought I'd burned out on turn-based RPGs for the time being, but now I have an inexplicable urge to play FF8?
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Whatever happened to drabbles? [Feb. 11th, 2018|07:05 pm]
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I don't normally get worked up over semantics as inconsequential as this, but it's been bothering me enough that I want to talk about it.

For a long time, drabbles were defined as 100-word stories. Sometimes you could dip into over 100 words, but the object of it was to tell a story in exactly 100. It's a deceptively simple-looking writing challenge that invites creativity through minimalism, and can be a great tool for chipping at writer's block.

Lately, that definition seems to have been lost and redefined as stories that range from 500 to even 1000 words. I'm not sure when this happened (one of my friends speculates that it might have been somewhere near the emergence of AO3), but I'm at an even greater loss for why it happened. I've even seen 500-1000-word stories not labeled as drabbles receive comments along the lines of "This isn't a full fic, it's a just a drabble." I've seen writers on Tumblr post that their ask box is open for drabble requests, and end up exhausted from writing 300-500-word stories. (Has "drabble" become a substitute phrase for a short story?) It's a little troubling, because the former example implies that short stories are somehow "lesser", and the latter shows writers being pressured to overexert themselves. (Mind, if the writer is writing over 100 words for drabbles because inspiration struck, that's fantastic, but most of the ones I've seen don't have that definition of a drabble in mind.)

tl;dr Let's bring back the original definition of drabble as a 100-word story. They're great writing challenges.
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Taken from itsamellama [Feb. 4th, 2018|03:56 pm]
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The problem with LJ/DW: we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away. Then post this in your journal and find out what people don't know about you.
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My card for trope_bingo [Jan. 1st, 2018|12:39 pm]
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...my other New Year's resolution is to get every one of these damn things I sign up for done.

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